Tuesday, January 1, 2013

Books read in 2k12

Here is a list of the works read by me in 2012. I'm not entirely sure this is a complete list. My Macbook was stolen in September, which contained the updated document. Some of the books were partially read in late 2011, and finished in 2012. It appears that I read less this year than I have in the past. This is probably due to my having been in a healthy relationship most of the year(finally).

books I loved are in bold

books I liked are in italics
books that were "okay" are in regular fontbooks I disliked but finished are in regular font with XXXX in bold next to it (those I disliked enough to stop early I kept off the list)
an *asterisk means I re-read the book or read it twice this year

I didn't post any book links, because you can find them on your own. I recommend these links to find books Ken Sanders Rare Books or Weller Book Works or King's English in Salt Lake City, or Powell's in Portland. Support local bookstores!


"The Angel Esmeralda" by Don DeLillo

"End Zone" by Don DeLillo
"Child of God" by Cormac McCarthy
"Chronic City" by Jonathan Lethem
"Dora: A Headcase" by Lidia Yuknavitch
"The Broom of The System" by David Foster Wallace*
"Levitation" by Cynthia Ozick
"The Crying of Lot 49" by Thomas Pynchon*
"The Hunger Games" by Suzanne Collins (only read ~2/3s of it)
"A Short Stay In Hell" by Steven Peck
"We Only Know So Much" by Elizabeth Crane
"Leaving The Atocha Station" by Ben Lerner
"J R" by William Gaddis
"Girl Imagined By Chance" by Lance Olsen
"Invisible Cities" by Italo Calvino*
"Roadside Picnic" by Arkady & Boris Strugatsky
"A Clockwork Orange" by Anthony Burgess
"A Brilliant Novel In The Works" by Yuvi Zalkow 
"And Now You Can Go" by Vendela Vida*
"Forty Stories" by Donald Barthelme*
"Shenanigans" by Joseph Michael Owens
"Metamorphosis and Other Stories" by Franz Kafka*"A Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genius" by Dave Eggers*
"A Hologram For The King" by Dave Eggers

"Less Than Zero" by Bret Easton Ellis XXXX
"Imperial Bedrooms" by Bret Easton Ellis XXXX
"Life: A User's Manual" by Georges Perec
"The Unbearable Lightness of Being" by Milan Kundera


"Both Flesh And Not" by David Foster Wallace

"Catching the Big Fish: Meditation, Consciousness, and Creativity" by David Lynch
"Wild: From Lost to Found on The Pacific Crest Trail" by Cheryl Strayed
"Tiny Beautiful Things" by Cheryl Strayed
"Every Love Story Is A Ghost Story: A Life Of David Foster Wallace" by DT Max
"Blue Nights" by Joan Didion
"This is Water" by David Foster Wallace*
"The Sublime Object of Ideology" by Slavoj Zizek
"David Foster Wallace's Infinite Jest: A Reader's Guide(1st Edition)" by Stephen Burn 
"Chaos" by James Gleick
"Writing Pynchon" by Alec McHoul, David Wills
"The Beats: A Graphic History" by Harvey Pekar*
"The Black Dot Series" & "Pretty Flowers" by Gabby Gabby
"Signifying Rappers" by David Foster Wallace and Mark Costello*


"Selected Poems" by Michael McClure*

"Howl and other Poems" by Allen Ginsberg* 
"S/He" by Saul Williams*

BOOKS, ESSAYS OR SHORT STORY COLLECTIONS that I read partially or most of, but not all. It's usually because they are favorite authors and I like to spread out the reading. Or they were stolen with my Macbook. This list is actually much longer, as I have maaaaaaany books I begin reading, but I will stick to books in which I read a decent chunk.

“The Secret Life of Pronouns: What Our Words Say About Us” by James W. Pennebaker

"Dhalgren" by Samuel R. Delany (Book was stolen, couldn't finish it)
"Conversations with David Foster Wallace(Literary Conversations Series)" edited by Stephen J. Burn(Book was stolen, couldn't finish it)
"David Foster Wallace's Infinite Jest, Second Edition: A Reader's Guide" by Stephen Burn(Book was stolen, couldn't finish it)
"Hot Pink" by Adam Levin
"The History of Scientific Revolutions" by Thomas Kuhn
"The Grand Design" Stephen Hawking
“A Supposedly Fun Thing I’ll Never Do Again” by David Foster Wallace*
“Consider The Lobster” by David Foster Wallace*
"Brief Interviews With Hideous Men" by David Foster Wallace*
"It Is Right To Draw Their Fur" by Dave Eggers
“God Bless America: Stories” by Steve Almond
"American Tabloid" by James Ellroy
"Major Works" by Ludwig Wittgenstein
Grantland Quarterly: Volume 1
Grantland Quarterly: Volume 2
Grantland Quarterly: Volume 3
McSweeney's Quarterly: Issue 16*
McSweeney's Quarterly: Issue 24*
McSweeney's Quarterly: Issue 25*

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

The process of '()'

The process of “( )”

Sometimes I write, and sometimes it is poetry. Sometimes it’s typewritten. Sometimes it’s on a legal pad. Sometimes I take a red pen to it. Sometimes I make a second draft.

It’s not often I do all of these things, however, and perhaps that’s why I’m posting this.

Sunday, January 15, 2012

Some thoughts on a Sunday

I watched 'Unforgiven' and was reminded how incredible it is. Thanks, Newlin, for mentioning it online as a reminder that I needed to watch it again. I'm not a big Clint Eastwood fan, but I love him in this. Of course Morgan Freeman is great as well. This is probably my favorite movie about friendship. 

Speaking of friends, I have the best friends in the world. Funny, intelligent, empathetic pillars of greatness. I love joking with them. I love traveling with them. I love partying with them. 

Speaking of friends, codependency is no fun. Neither is cutting off all communication with a best friend. But when things get toxic, heartless, and mindless, you have to go by my old saying, "when beset by the trials that love gets us in/ love and loves must be jettisoned."

The 49ers are on the brink of the Super Bowl, if they win at home vs. the New York Giants. I love sports, and I laugh that so many of my friends scoff at the very thought of sports. Some of the greatest, most intellectual, fulfilling conversations I've ever had have been sports-related. My favorite books have sports as underlying themes. Sports provide me with the healthy, manageable happiness/sadness spectrum. I'd much rather feel the crushing loss of my team's playoff troubles than go through another emotionally turbulent relationship with an unstable ex(I, too, being unstable).

I love being able to get a coffee & an Oreo McFlurry at McD's for the price of a coffee at a local cafe, while also proudly wearing a football jersey that'd otherwise be scoffed at at said cafes by the v-necked unwashed masses that have no idea that I could out-pretentious them at nearly any discipline they'd purport to hold dearly. 

I digress. I'm happy, and getting to the good place I need to be at in order to get my life back on track, as I've been off the rails for a few years now. 

Pax vobiscum. 

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

Books I read in 2011 (long list with links)

This is the list of books I’ve read in 2011 (as far as I can remember). I will probably select my favorite books of the year in January, since I will spend NYE in Vegas.

I sort of copied my friend Josh for the basic structure of this post. But I separated them into fiction, memoir, poetry, non-fiction, etc. Looks like the # was 93 total - which includes many thin volumes of poetry or novella-length story collections. Here's a key re: the random bold lines, italicized lines, and asterisks.


books I loved are in bold

books I liked are in italics

books I disliked but finished are in regular writing with XXXX next to it (those I disliked enough to stop early I kept off the list)

an *asterisk means I re-read or read it twice this year


"Players" by Don DeLillo (fun fact, I always start the year off reading a DeLillo book)

"Steps" by Jerzy Kosinski

"Reader's Block" by David Markson

Whores For Gloria” by William T. Vollmann XXXX

"The Pale King" by David Foster Wallace*

"Pacazo" by Roy Kesey

"This is Not a Novel" by David Markson

"Play It As It Lays" by Joan Didion

"A Visit From The Goon Squad" by Jennifer Egan

"Vacation" by Deb Olin Unferth*

"Agapē Agape" by William Gaddis

"How To Keep Your Volkswagen Alive" by Christopher Boucher

"V." by Thomas Pynchon

"Donald" by Eric Martin and Stephen Elliott

"Great Jones Street" by Don DeLillo

"Old Man And The Sea" by Ernest Hemingway*

"Politically Correct Bedtime Stories" by James Finn Garner

"You Think That’s Bad" by Jim Shepard

"Metamorphosis and Other Stories" by Franz Kafka*

"Once Upon a River" by Bonnie Jo Campbell

"Infinite Jest" by David Foster Wallace* (ON MY KINDLE!?!?!?!?!)

"The Shining" by Stephen King

"The Broom of the System" by David Foster Wallace*

"Angels" by Denis Johnson

"The Last Western" by Thomas S. Klise

"Overnight to Many Distant Cities" by Donald Barthelme*

"Bartelby, the Scrivener" by Herman Melville*

"Blind Willow, Sleeping Woman" by Haruki Murakami

"Old Angel Midnight" by Jack Kerouac

"The Trial" by Franz Kafka*

"The Nick Adams Stories" by Ernest Hemingway

"Swedish Folktales & Legends" by Lone Thygesen Blecher & George Blecher

"Flying to America: 45 More Stories" by Donald Barthelme

"Orchid #1" by Tom Morello

"If on a Winter's Night a Traveler" by Italo Calvino*

"The Avian Gospels" by Adam Novy*

"The Rum Diary: A Novel" by Hunter S. Thompson*

"The Art of Fielding" by Chad Harbach


"Valparaiso" by Don DeLillo

"The Importance of Being Earnest" by Oscar Wilde

"Beat Generation" by Jack Kerouac*


"Revolution" by Deb Olin Unferth

"The Chronology of Water" by Lidia Yuknavitch

"The Discomfort Zone" by Jonathan Franzen*

"Bossypants" by Tina Fey

"The Adderall Diaries" by Stephen Elliott

"Prisoner of Zion" by Scott Carrier*

"Running After Antelope" by Scott Carrier*

"The Wild Goose Chronicles" by Trent Harris*

"The Bullpen Gospels: Major League Dreams of a Minor League Veteran" by

Dirk Hayhurst

"Riding Toward Everywhere" by William T. Vollmann*


"Allegories Of Violence" by Lidia Yuknavitch

"Letters to a Young Contrarian" by Christopher Hitchens*

"The Prince" by Niccolo Machiavelli*

"Bob Dylan In America" by Sean Wilentz

"A Confession" by Leo Tolstoy*

"Signifying Rappers" by David Foster Wallace and Mark Costello

"Obama's Wars" by Bob Woodward

"The Puppet and the Dwarf" by Slavoj Zizek

"The Rebel" by Albert Camus*

"A Band of MiSFits" by Andrew Baggarly

"Zen Mind, Beginner's Mind" by Shunryu Suzuki

"How To Read Wittgenstein" by Ray Monk

"Chaos" by James Gleick

"This is Water" by David Foster Wallace*

"Be Here Now" by Ram Dass

"Fate, Time, and Language: An Essay on Free Will" by David Foster Wallace

"Earth Song: Inside Michael Jackson's Magnum Opus" by Joseph Vogel

"Between Hope and History" by Bill Clinton

"Giving" by Bill Clinton*

"Common Sense Government" Al Gore XXXX

"Uncentering the Earth: Copernicus and The Revolutions of the Heavenly Spheres" by William T. Vollmann

"Illuminations" by Walter Benjamin*

"Holler If You Hear Me" by Michael Eric Dyson*

"The San Francisco Public Library in its Own Words" by Wendy MacNaughton

"Bob Dylan: The Essential Interviews" edited by Jonathan Cott


"Tarantula" by Bob Dylan

"September Blackberries" by Michael McClure

"Selected Poems" by Michael McClure*

"Windows & Stones" by Tomas Transtromer

"100 Poems from the Japanese" translated by Kenneth Rexroth*

"New Poems" by Kenneth Rexroth

"Howl and other Poems" by Allen Ginsberg*

"Reality Sandwiches: 1953-1960" by Allen Ginsberg*

"Kaddish and Other Poems: 1958-1960" by Allen Ginsberg*

"The Fall of America: Poems of These States 1965-1971" by Allen Ginsberg*

"Where Water Comes Together with Other Water: Poems" by Raymond Carver

"Of Lamb" by Matthea Harvey and Amy Jean Porter

"The Waste Land and Other Poems" by T. S. Eliot*

"The Dead Emcee Scrolls" by Saul Williams*

"SHE" by Saul Williams*

"Cognitive-Behavioral Therapy" by Tao Lin

"The Pill Versus the Springhill Mine Disaster" by Richard Brautigan

I READ LARGE PORTIONS OF THESE BOOKS, [an *asterisk means it is a re-read] (17)

"Catch-22" by Joseph Heller

"Under The Dome" by Stephen King

"Consider The Lobster" by David Foster Wallace*

"The Marriage Plot" by Jeffrey Eugenides

"The Three Pillars of Zen" by Philip Kapleau

"A Supposedly Fun Thing I’ll Never Do Again" by David Foster Wallace*

"Birds of America" by Lorrie Moore

"Oblivion" by David Foster Wallace*

"Final Crisis" by Grant Morrison

"No Nature: New and Selected Poems" by Gary Snyder

Luminarium by Alex Shakar

"Swamplandia!" by Karen Russell

"Big If: A Novel" by Mark Costello*

"God Bless America: Stories" by Steve Almond

"Changing My Mind: Occasional Essays" by Zadie Smith

"The Ecstasy of Influence" by Jonathan Lethem

"The Spirit of Zen" by Alan Watts


"The Secret Life of Pronouns: What Our Words Say About Us" by James W. Pennebaker (352 pgs)

"11/22/63: A Novel" by Stephen King (849 pgs)

"1Q84" by Haruki Murakami (944 pgs)

"Gravity’s Rainbow" by Thomas Pynchon (784 pgs)

"You Bright And Risen Angels" by William T. Vollmann (656 pgs)

"The Public Burning" by Robert Coover (544 pgs)

"A Moment in The Sun" by John Sayles (968 pgs)

"Rising Up and Rising Down : Some Thoughts on Violence, Freedom and Urgent Means" by William T. Vollmann (752 pgs)

"Genius: A Mosaic of One Hundred Exemplary Creative Minds" by Harold Bloom (814 pgs)

"I am a Strange Loop" by Douglas Hofstadter (436 pgs)

"The Four Fingers of Death" by Rick Moody (736 pgs)

"Italian Folktales" by Italo Calvino (800 pgs)

Tuesday, October 11, 2011


10/11/09 11:39 p.m. 7 lbs 10 oz. 19.5" to the song "The Wind Cries Mary" by Jimi Hendrix

Saturday, August 13, 2011



the huddled hysterics

echo the privilege

they fail

to see in overlapped

engagements tepid with flair

& indignancy

but the courtship failed &

the crown gathered dust

in the jester’s lair

amidst the velvet underbelly

of valid distinction


forfeiture norms

in the the pavement of chalk

one foot in essence

& farther up trail

where the nurture is pale

as a ghostly betrayal

Wednesday, June 8, 2011